What will it bring?

Do you Ever Wish that you could See what your Future holds for you? Like what is going to happen in the long run? Where you're going to be in 5-10-15-30 years? I don't really care what I'm going to look like. Truth be told, that kinda scares me a lot, so I can hold back on that one, but I'd like to know, WHERE am I going to be? WHAT will I be doing? WILL I be with someone? AM I going to be the happiest person on this Earth? WILL I own my own house? And, WHERE Will I be working?

Whenever I get a new phone and my contract is up in three years, I always think "Umm, three years...I wonder where I'll be in three years, what is the future going to bring?" Or when you get your licence renewed, and every five years, or is it seven years? I don't remember, I wonder, "how much will I change in that picture". "Will I gain weight, will I still look the same? Will I still live in the same City or Province? What will I be doing, how will I be acting"?

I'm just wondering if I'm the only one that thinks this way, or do others?

I wish I could see into the future. I'd love to get up and move. I have nothing holding me back. NOTHING at all. I'm free as a bird. But why do I just stay here? I also question myself with that. I just need to get myself moving and see what the future is going to bring me, I guess.

I'm getting older....time is ticking, and it's time to have more fun. Let's live life to the fullest and not hold back due to fears, that I usually let me hold me back. That way, when I do think back to the past, I won't have any regrets. That way, I can think "yeah, I accomplished some things, or I made myself proud...I want my future to be BRIGHT and HAPPY!!!!

IT JUST SUCKS!!!

You know what Sucks???

Life just sucks sometimes! The unexpected sucks, the unknown sucks, the hurting sucks, and then everything just sucks. Then when you have a sinus cold and all you do is cry and it hurts your face more, that can suck even more!!!

I'm hurting for some very close friends right now. The unexpected has happened with them. Hell has gone through their home and things aren't going well at all. One day everything was great, and then the next, BOOM, things went terribly wrong. There's no words to describe it.

I can't stop crying, and the worst thing, they always say "there's a light at the end of the tunnel"! Really, I don't see one at this one...I really don't! Yup, that's how bad it is right now.

I'm hurting for every single one of them...and I don't know how much more I can take, so I just wonder how are they pulling through? I'm worried sick. I made myself sleep for 3 hours after work today, because I couldn't take it anymore. Then I woke up, and cried instantly again.

THE PAIN!!!!! IT SUCKS!!!!!!!

Christmas Already? What?

It's only November 4th! And a great friend of mine has her house about 50% decorated for Christmas already! When I walked into her house this evening, I made a point and told her that she was INSANE, because it was WAY too early for this! Her reply was that it's not, because it's Now November! She said that by Mid November her house should be fully decorated. Then as I continued to hang out, while she was baking some yummy pies, she had put in her Christmas CD to entertain all of us. Now, I LOVE Christmas Music, I could usually listen to it in July, but that's for FUN!!! But right now, I'm thinking that this is just WAY too early! I don't know why I'm having such a hard time with it....is it because no one else is decorating their places quite yet? I LOVE IT when the time comes...but....lol. But right now? :op Also is it because the reality hits you even harder and you realize that you better get your butt in gear and you should be purchasing all those lovely gifts for your loved ones Now, instead of later? I don't know what my problem is! Oh, as I'm thinking of it now...maybe it's because I've realized that it's going to SNOW very soon...maybe I'm scared that my friend is going to jynx our Beautiful weather that we've been having. Yup, November 4th and we've been very fortunate to have been able to wear our t-shirts or summer jackets quite often. Even for some evenings. Lucky eh. Friend you better not bring any snow our way. ;) It's calling for it this week, and I'll try not to blame you!
But until then, I'll try my hardest to accept your crazy behavior with a smile on my face! :D

(I had another blog and only had wrote 3 postings on it, but I wasn't feeling it, so I've decided to post them on here. So the dates will be wrong for the 2 posts, that I'm going to transfer over).